Womb Twin Survivor
Do you know deep inner loneliness—although when seen from the outside, you are not alone at all? Have you ever felt an unexplainable sadness, felt you are always searching for something, that somehow you are not in the right place and are misunderstood? Are you highly sensitive, have a tendency to overwork, and problems with your partner or family members? Do patterns of loss show up again and again in your life, a life which isn’t unfolding as you had wished and planned? Did you have the experience that your therapies did not work the way you hoped?
These types of uncomfortable feelings could indicate that you were not alone in the womb while your mother was pregnant—though you were the only baby born. 10—20% of all pregnancies are multiple pregnancies. Often, tiny little embryos vanish during their first weeks of life, some live much longer before they perish. In every case, it is traumatic for the surviving embryo, who feels the loss of this heart nearness, of this first intimacy, through unfiltered senses. Submerged and sheltered in the same womb is probably as close as a human being can be with someone else. At first an embryo hears a heartbeat that isn’t its mother’s, that of its twin. A cuddling sensation arises, gentle hugging. And then it disappears! This cruel loss is recorded in one’s cells, becomes a memory that influences life forever after. We long for the return of this feeling of deepest, closest intimacy, often feeling disappointed over and over again that we don’t find it in our relationships.